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Matt turns 1! REFERENCED Marijuana Maintenance / via Choose Help / http://www.choosehelp.com/topics/harm-reduction/considering-marijuana-maintenance-cannabis-as-a-substitution-therapy-for-alcoholism Palcohol (powdered alcohol) / via NYT / http://www.nytimes.com/2015/04/04/business/powdered-alcohol-meets-resistance-in-us-before-it-even-comes-to-market.html?_r=0 Coffee / via TIME / http://time.com/3739326/coffee-healthy-caffeine/ Upcoming! The SRN Schedule / http://www.sincerightnow.com/upcoming/ SRN Listener Survey / http://www.podtrac.com/audience/start-survey.aspx?pubid=BmiKe4TJqGkG&ver=standard HOTLINE! / (K+S) KLN-SBR1 —or— (507-556-7271) Clips / Mr. Rogers' Neighborhood f. Fred Rogers

Originally recorded January 28, 2015. Jeff, Chris and Matt discuss therapy. You just can't hear Matt. Clip: The Lost Weekend f. Ray Miland / 1945 / http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0037884/

Jeff, Matt & Chris return refreshed and renewed with a wide-ranging, edge-of-your-seat recovery chat. At times aimless and unfocused and at times meandering across barely-related tangents, you won't want to miss this very special episode. Referenced: Moderation Management / http://moderation.org Rethinking Alcohol: Can Heavy Drinkers Learn To Cut Back? / NPR / http://www.npr.org/blogs/health/2015/03/23/393651417/rethinking-alcohol-can-heavy-drinkers-learn-to-cut-back Krokodil (Desomorphine) / Wikipedia / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Desomorphine Matcha / Wikipedia / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matcha

Three friends in recovery from alcohol and other drugs talking about it. Clip: It's A Wonderful Life / 1946 / Liberty Films

In which Jeff, Matt and Chris discuss getting sober, staying sober, triggers, N.A., rehab and more!

"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results."—Not Albert Einstein* In the interest of demonstrating our sanity, Jeff, Matt and I went to a SMART Recovery meeting (http://smartrecovery.org). Then we talked about it. *The earliest verifiable instances of the quote are: Alcoholics Anonymous / Step 2: A Promise of Hope (pamphlet) / 1980 Narcotics Anonymous / The Basic Text of Narcotics Anonymous / 1981

As persons in recovery what is our responsibility to others in recovery? Paul came back. https://twitter.com/mssginbottle Social Networks and Social Media Can Help in Recovery From Addiction / HuffPo, Healthy Living / http://www.huffingtonpost.com/david-sack-md/addicts-support_b_1609085.html Clips: Are You That Somebody? (Timbaland Intro) / 1998 / Aaliyah We Are Your Friends (Reprise) [Live] / 2008 / Justice

Bad attitudes and “banal platitudes” in recovery. Referenced: Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself / Melody Battle / http://amzn.com/0894864025 Hostage to the Devil: The Possession and Exorcism of Five Contemporary Americans / Malachi Martin / http://amzn.com/006065337X Do You Have FOMO: Fear Of Missing Out? / Forbes / http://www.forbes.com/sites/work-in-progress/2014/03/27/do-you-have-fomo-fear-of-missing-out/ Big Book, Chapter 5: How It Works / http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/aa-literature/p-10-how-it-works This Is Water / David Foster Wallace / http://vimeo.com/68855377 blunt / http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blunt_(cannabis_cigar) Clips: Get Ready For This / 2 Unlimited / 1991 This Is Water / DFW / 2005 / Kenyon College

Pondered with our usual lack of reverence and/or qualification: Substance Use Disorder, Semantics and Stigma Harm Reduction / http://harmreduction.org Moderation Management / http://moderation.org SMART Recovery / http://www.smartrecovery.org Is the use of hallucinogens—specifically psilocybin—a good idea in the interest of pursuing one’s spirituality as it relates to one’s recovery? Clip: The Breakfast Club, 1985, Universal Pictures

Ep. 1502 Recover, Rewind, Review Clean and Sober In which Jeff, Matt and I discuss the 1988 Michael Keaton rehab/12 Step classic then finish with an extended discussion that covers the 12th Step, the 11th tradition and anonymity in recovery. Referenced: Atuk. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atuk) The screenwriter, Tod Carroll’s unfilmed, and supposedly cursed, script. It’s taken the lives of at least three well-known substance-abusing actors. Jerry Stahl. Writer of both screwball, illegal alien sitcom, Alf (http://youtu.be/Eo5tBDXyQno)and his autobiographical story of his heroin addiction—and Ben Stiller tragicomic vehicle—Permanent Midnight. (http://youtu.be/LF5I7Tcrgq0) All clips from the film Clean and Sober / 1988 / Warner Bros. With the exception of “My name is John…” clip from Dear John (TV) / 1988 / CBS (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dear_John_(U.S._TV_series))

Tell A Friend…Seriously, Tell A Friend. Thanks for sticking with us while we took a couple of weeks off to deck our halls, roast our chestnuts and dash through snow laughing all the way. (And, no, none of those are euphemisms.) I toyed with making a withdrawal reference but it seemed a bit too lazy and probably not that funny and two of my NY rezzies are to be less lazy and more funny. And besides, I know you missed us. The important thing is that we're back and back and talking recovery with a new episode of the Since Right Now Pod. • The in-studio SRN Crew of Jeff, Matt and Chris—that's me—catch up and chat about resolutions and the challenges we faced and wonders we witnessed during this past Season of Joy, Merriment and Crushing Anxiety. • I think we start making plans to put on a pop-up dry bar here in the STL • We talk about the smoking elephant in the rooms: smoking in recovery • Jeff and Matt (AA) help Chris (non-AA) work through some Step 4 and Step 9 questions with some 12 Step advice • Oh, a

"No matter where you go, there you are." — Buckaroo Banzai* Jeff and Chris are joined by episode 22's Matt and episode 16's Marilyn for a super fun square table discussion about isolation and addiction. *Okay, Confucius said it first but…whatevs.

Jeff and Chris welcome (back) their long-time friend from a stint in the wild. In Matt's story relapse is indeed a part of recovery. REFERENCED Legal drugs / How powerful synthetic drugs will upend drug markets globally / Washington Post / http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/wonkblog/wp/2014/12/02/how-powerful-synthetic-drugs-will-upend-drug-markets-globally/ MUSIC https://soundcloud.com/djfmdotcom IMAGE Hindenburg crashing / 1937 / Associate Press / public domain via Wikimedia

Just two dudes talking about sobriety and recovery and trying to figure out what it all means. REFERENCED You're in recovery if… / Addiction & Recovery News / https://addictionandrecoverynews.wordpress.com/2014/11/10/youre-in-recovery-if/ Nalmefene / Middle-Class Drinkers to be Given £3 Daily Alcohol Pill to Reduce Binges / International Business Times (UK) / http://www.ibtimes.co.uk/middle-class-drinkers-be-given-3-daily-alcohol-pill-reduce-binges-1476688 (DSM-V) Revised Criteria for Alcohol and Substance Use Disorders / Psyche Central / http://psychcentral.com/disorders/revised-alcoholsubstance-use-disorder/all/1/ IMAGE CBD / 2012 / Kevin Ho / CC via Flickr https://www.flickr.com/photos/kevho86/ MUSIC https://soundcloud.com/djfmdotcom

Jeff & Chris talk about being sober during the Holidays. Our new segment, 100% Volume by Alcoholics (with Marilyn Spiller of WakingUpTheGhost.com), has been postponed until a later episode. Referenced #addictionchat “Recovery-full Holidays” / @LEAFcouncil Blackout Wednesday / Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blackout_Wednesday Q: Does alcohol cook off in food preparation? A: It’s complicated. http://homecooking.about.com/library/archive/blalcohol12.htm Zevia Sparkling Celebrations / Whole Foods https://www.wholefoodsmarket.com/shop/FFX/2369/15725 Manischewitz (makers of Manischewitz kosher wine) / Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manischewitz

In his riveting visit with us, the deeply-thoughtful and erudite Jon G. takes us to and through his recovery up to this point and gives us a glimpse behind the decks as a DJ in recovery. REFERENCED Sober And Sold-Out: Dance Club In Sweden Cuts Booze For A Night / NPR http://www.npr.org/blogs/thetwo-way/2014/09/28/352279829/sober-and-sold-out-dance-club-in-sweden-cuts-booze-for-a-night Jump-Start Your Workday With an 8 A.M. Rave / NYT http://www.nytimes.com/2014/06/13/nyregion/daybreaker-an-alcohol-free-morning-dance-party.html?_r=0 Last Man Standing / DJ FM https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/last-man-standing/id872537517 ACOA / Adult Children of Alcoholics http://www.adultchildren.org White Chip (“Surrender” Token) / AA http://www.woodenurecover.com/AA-White-Chip--Plastic-Token_p_119583.html Holly Glenn Whitaker / Hip Sobriety http://www.hipsobriety.com Oxford House / Self-Help for Sobriety Without Relapse http://www.oxfordhouse.org/userfiles/file/ IMAGE [Radio tower?] / ca. 1927 / Harris & Ewi

Joe, who got sober in his teens and is about to celebrate his 38th year of sobriety this month, is a man of many hats and talents. Joe’s a recovery trailblazer in the vanguard of those actively working to shape the fast-evolving recovery landscape. Through his Recovery Dogs imprint, Joe recently published Beyond Belief: Agnostic Musings for 12 Step Life. He joined us days before he’s set to be the opening speaker at the inaugural We Agnostics and Freethinkers International AA Conference. Referenced: “Whatever course you decide upon there is always someone to tell you you’re wrong.” / Ralph Waldo Emerson / from November 3 entry in Beyond Belief http://thinkexist.com/quotation/whatever_course_you_decide_upon-there_is_always/14528.html Beyond Belief: Agnostic Musings for 12 Step Life / Joe C. / Rebellion Dogs Publishing http://rebelliondogspublishing.com/beyondbelief We Agnostics and Freethinkers International AA Confernece / November 6-8, 2014 / Santa Monica, CA http://waftiaac.org Chapter 4: We Agnostics

Waking Up the Ghost? I’ll let Marilyn explain: “… the first time I heard that expression, I was sitting on a deserted island in the Exumas, with a jaundiced Bahamian named Sands. I think it is also the first time a Bahamian man has ever refused a free drink. What Sands meant, was that the icy beer I offered would lead to another, and another and another; it was safer to keep the Ghost in check by not drinking at all.” A year and a half into her recovery Marilyn shares some insight on keeping the spirit(s) at bay. Referenced First Among Equals / Marilyn / Waking Up the Ghost http://wakinguptheghost.com/first-among-equals/ Land of the Lotus Eaters http://www.heritage-history.com/?c=read&author=langjean&book=odyssey&story=troyland Darth Vader (Anakin Skywalker) http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Anakin_Skywalker Alan Carr’s Easyway To Stop Smoking http://www.allencarr.com International Drinking Guidelines (Note: I had this wrong. It’s actually 1-2 drinks/day for women in much of the world.) http://www.icap.

UPDATE / 10.19.15 / You can now hear Paul on his own podcast: https://soundcloud.com/buzzkill-pod ___________________________ Paul is many things in this fourth year of his recovery. We talk about a few of them. REFERENCED How Alcohol Saved My Life / Paul / http://messageinabottleblog.wordpress.com/2014/10/11/how-alcohol-saved-my-life/ The 3rd & 7th Steps 3rd: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood God. / http://12step.org/the-12-steps/step-3.html 7th: Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings. / http://12step.org/the-12-steps/step-7.html The Power of Now / A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment / Eckhart Tolle / http://www.eckharttolle.com/books/now/ B.S. / Jeff & Chris / http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLSis1Kp2YaMG1R7VAFAimA9lkmsq3w2pP MUSIC DJ FM / https://soundcloud.com/djfmdotcom

Chris goes to his second, Jeff takes someone else to their first and the 12th Step seems to have been the one that in one way or another got us each to our destinations. Referenced The 12th Step Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs. http://12step.org/the-12-steps/step-12.html Headspace / Meditation App https://www.headspace.com Centering Prayer http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Centering_prayer Please visit: http://sincerightnow.com/pdcst for full show notes.